Untitled Pain Poem
We met before consciousnesses
but you were idle
idle for years
lingering underneath unbeknownst to me.
here you are 26 years later
actually you first showed yourself at 16 but you were not yet a storm,
you were not yet consuming me
pain.
causing me to reconsider my life
my joy,
sickness, chronic
and though I know you now,
i do not yet understand you,
I’m not sure I wish to.
I just want control back.
Please return my body to me.
my hope, my dreams, my fears.
Release and Return.

